tmr gona go to Malaysia.
to pray yah?
qing ming jie?
5.30am gona leave here.
which means i gotta wake up before 5.30am?
but at least is better than my maternal side de.
my mum left at 3.30am from our house. which means she wakes up at abt 2.45am on last SUNDAY.
whoo.
okok.
tmr going in. so yah. tonight lots of things to do.
haix.

oh well.
im bored.very bored.
ANYONE.
can recommend what to do in SINGAPORE.
i have been to the city area lots of time already.
but i still don't know what to do.
sigh.

kind of bored.
maybe i shall just go read the FULL HOUSE story book.
hm.
but then i read is super fast. cos its in traditional chinese.
hahahaah.
for most of the words.

Oh ya.
da chang jin is NICE!!
=)

im still bored lah.
well.update next week then.
till then. ciaos!


Happy bday TO MY YOUNGER BROTHER- TAN LIAN ENG.
finally u are turning 15 today.
haha.
:)

well.
last week was horrible.i couldn't take it during work.
work work work. make new friends.
hah.
:)
i love it lah.
okay.
at work was fun but tiring.
mostly is because the staff there was okay.
but then.
then most funny thing should be the customer.
a lot of customers who approach me would ask me what is this for blablabla.
some even ask me whether do i know how to read JAP.
hohoho.
if i know.
the sky might fall.
and some so funny.
they were suppose to approach me.
then they stop and talk among themselve.
and you know what they say?
"ta hui bu hui jiang hua yu?"
does she knows how to speak chinese?
i dont care lah. i just do my things. then when they approach me. and cos i couldn't catch what they said. then i wana say sorry, can u repeat again right.
you know what. when i say sorry. they say. hey,she doesn't know how to speak chinese.
>.<
hello. i say sorry cos i wouldn't say dui bu qi ma. where got pple apologies in chinese?for me nah. nope.
hah.

still overall was okay. fun.
later suppose to go out with friends. but think should be other days leh.
:)
oh well. maybe i going out later by myself.
:)

see how it goes.
im tired.
haha.
feel like sleeping again.
this few days have been sleeping.
hah.
oh yah.

HAPPY BDAY TO BROTHER AGAIN.
:)
i love u,brother. even though we quarrel 24/7.
hahaha.


Happy bday leechin.

:)

i shall blog tmr.


i cried to sleep yesterday.
the tissues were on my bed and my pillow were still wet.

and my mum still ask me why.

when the reason was so obvious.
her words.
just hurts alright.

i remember yesterday.xj ask me when is my piano result coming out. i say should be next week. but then no. it didn't. it came into my mailbox yesterday.

i just didn't do well.
or should i say i fail.
i don't understand what happen though.
i feel so down yesterday.
i don't know whether i will be happy today.
im scared of tomorrow.
im scared of everything i do right now.

im completely a failure in my whole life.

reason my mum words hurts.
of course it hurts.
she will only say say say.
compare compare compare.
and to nobody else but my niece alone.
let alone her friends daughter.
for godness sake.
even my sch result she also go compare for what?
somemore is compare to some ppl totally in different course.
my result is mine.
not other ppl.
thats why i hated my result all day long.
when i gotten C, she will only say.
i hate it you know. i tried so hard for nothing. and yet in the end, all i get is what?
comaparing me to other ppl.
and bad remarks from her?
all i know is i wana get As and Bs. next sem. so she wouldn't have anything to say.and that one is i hope.
she will always say that i use computer for games during holidays.
during school term. she will also say don't know whether im doing project.
or whether im just chit chatting away.
she just don't believe me.
whatever.

shit. tears dropping down again. im really truly disappointed.
not disappointed in anyone.
but just myself.
and one last thing.
im gona give up on my piano.
i dont think i can make it anyway.
im such a hopeless person.
hopeless.
cos im not a gifted person.

should i?
even if i wana continue.
its all my money.
i gota pay for it myself
she wouldn't pay for it already.

im a unhappy person right now.
i don't know how to describe my feeling.
its so weird.

maybe tonight.
once again.
i will cry myself to sleep.

but i already feel hurt yesterday after what she say.

i didn't bug my friend,tell my friend yesterday. i shall keep my cool away. cos i just don't feel like bothering them.

and yes.
final word.
im a complete failure.
a true failure.

[better dry up my tears]
my eyes are still sore.
i hope they wouldn't know i have been crying yesterday night.

im tired.
crying is so much tired.
gtg.
bye.


alright later got work
seriously.
i think im not feeling well right now.
my stomach is feeling very very weird right now.

anyway. my head is getting better.

so yay?

i slack at home for yesterday. since im having off.
and funny thing is that my hp switch off.
and then i never check it till 3plus.
i was like LOW BATT LEH.
reply 6 msg.
haha. sorry ppl for late reply.

go and bath soon.
then gona go out to work.
oh no.
its so sian.
just so sian.
very sian.

EW1(Pasir Ris) to EW24(Jurong East)
....

how i wish that you were by my side everyday.
i wish only.


i just woke up.
yawns.
today i took off.
i know i will lose the 40 bucks plus.
i heck care leh.

mum went to bank.
and put money.
as in put don't know what 10k. then for three years.
then 1year get 300 plus. don't know what.
heck care.

haha.

oh.
im tired.
watched dream chasers retelecast on channel U. yesterday.
hehe.
at 12.30am.
was nice,touching still.
hm.

what a surprise yesterday.
hehe.
:)
cos saw wanhui and sophia on the MRT when we were coming back from work.
haha.
:)

yep!!
thats all.

sch reopen soon.
haha.
:)

and somehow i hate and like it.
haix.


i don't understand why.
what is the thing that keeps me going on right now.
i mean as in. im really sick and tired of the job.
but then. what is the thing that keep me going. i don't know either.
it's not tiring. but its very tiring.

anyway.
my hearing seem to have some problem.
i heard 96, as 39.
280 as 380
>.<
...

later another busy day.

sigh.
i wonder why students nowdays.
complain so much like us.
cos when sch. they say wana exams finished and then holidays.
when holidays starts.
they complain.
what hell is this?
working life never good.
school never good too.
everyone now is just studying for the cert.
nothing but cert.
for the paper.
no paper=die.
>.<
is the paper matters the most?
or what?
i hate reality.
it sucks too much already.

sigh.
maybe i should work double hard next sem.
to get all A's so my GPA can shoot up.
maybe in my dreams only.

speaking of dreams.
i have a nice one.
and oh no.
i practically hate next week already.
:(
cos piano result coming out.
result.
the one that make my life almost miserable for the last 13 years of my life.

Im so scared of next year if i can graduate.
cos i really don't know what i wana do.
sigh.
i hate my life right now.
nothing but stress.
cos i keep on thinking too much.
when can i stop thinking so much?
sigh.
i dislike it when ppl tell me that their result are not good. when i think is already very good.
don't know they wana be proud or what?
i really don't know lah.
whatever it is.
i don't care already.
sigh.

Later another trip to Jurong.
sigh.
>.<

hope tmr got OFF.
hahah


[edited]
im happy for zhiyang. who gotten into the finals for campus superstar.
:)
i just support him since the beginning lah.
somemore yesterday.
his "jiu shi ai ni" by David Tao yesterday.
SUPER DUPER NICE CAN ANOT?
no wonder he pro de.
Ganbatte neh!

Renfred on the other hand. a bit wasted.
forgotten the lyrics.
sigh.
if not, he surely can get higher marks.

Adriano.
out.
sigh.
i thought he will be in.
but then.still disappointed.

Clara was okay yesterday.
love her voice yesterday.
but too bad.
she's out.

Teresa.
ur the best.just love her FLY AWAY.
:)

Dean. not too bad too.

But zhiyang.
u r my campus superstar!!

later got work.
argh.
tmr then blog lah.
byebye.
:)

[edited]
im so tired.
tired.tired.tired.
i wana learn driving soon.
i cannot take it anymore.
the more ppl learning. the more tempting im.
lol.
but then. i learn cos i wana learn lah.
ok. work
imagine.
taking mrt from pasir ris to jurong.
thats already killing.
work is hell too.
stand.stand.stand.
peng.
other than that. time pass pretty fast.
so yah.
but i don't know.

and this few days.
i have been getting afternoon nap. till i can't sleep at night.

shrugs.
i need some sleep lah.
:(

oh well.
im off now.
nite to pple out there.

sweet dream yeah?

edited at 11.45pm.


Im back.
:)

well.
a long week i have.
and the nicest i had for once.
:)

Monday-
pack my stuff at 1.
haha.
i make it.then i went to meet they all at Pasir ris interchange at 2.
then weiyi and me met.
the rest were late.
then me and wy. went to whitesand(which is already kind of bored to me,haha).
then we went to whitesand. and just wander around.
just to enjoy the aircon.
then shop ard.
then Jane came and meet us.
:)
then we sit down. and chat. and waited for cloud.
haha
then we cannot take it. we were too hungry.
haha
then we went to the food court and have our lunch.
whew.
then cloud came and meet us.
then we took 403 to Pasir ris park and check into PA chalet.
then while walking. my leg was hurt by this dunno what.
then bleed lor.
then my ankle there now so ugly.
hope no scars.(second injury for my leg,that time is a little boy step and kick on my last toe. then inside bleed).
anyway.
went in,put our stuff.
check things.
then we went back to Whitesand.
then meet Huimin there.
went to buy some stuff.
and then.
took 403 back again.
whew.
me and wy stop at Elias mall.
went to buy 2 piece of cake(to celebrate Jane bday)
sponge.
and PIZZA.
from Canadian Pizza.
then we boarded 403 again.
haha.
:)
then we went back there.
ate out dinner.
which is pizza.
and then we celebrated Jane bday.
using the 2 piece of cake we bought earlier.
haha.
we surprise her though.
cos me,wy and cloud were inside the kitchen. dunno doing what thingy. then we walked out of the kitchen. holding the cake. and then. we walked out of the kitchen. and then sing happy birthday to you.
then she was shocked lah.
haha.
:)
then took photos.
anyway.
yah.

+the cake*


one is brownie,another one is vanilla
then we sing. and she cut the cake.
:)
then we went to watch tv and then.
speaking of the TV.
out of so many channel.
don't have channel U.
make me and the rest cannot watch the campus superstar.
haha.
nvm.
then we went to send huimin off.
then me,daisy,wy,cloud and jane. went to the playground and play.
haha.
then we play till. went back and just bath.
and then we played jenga on the bed.
listen carefully,bed.
haha.
dunno why. im so unlucky. always the one gana.
then. when everyone bath finished.
the 5 of us.
we play "zhong ji mi ma"
and then those gana de. will have to play true or dare.
but so late liao.
no dare lor.
then we play.
and chat and gossip.
haha.
for the whole night..
NEVER SLEPT AT ALL.
whoo.

TUESDAY-
then we went out of the chalet at about 6.45am.
looking tired.
but still.
wana catch the sunrise.
in the end.
we miss it.
cos im need to rush home.
cos i need to go and pray ma
...then when we walking up the stairs.
weiyi say. argh. the sun.
then we say.
aiyah. we miss it already.
nvm.
i grab my things and just went back. 403 went w/o me.
then i walked all the way home. from pasir ris park to my house at drive 6.
omg.
nvm.
then went home and bath.
haha.
then my mum ask whether any guys friends stay over. then i say no. then she say all girls arh. then why no guys. then i say. oh. later in case they drink. then they vomit. then in the end who clear up?we girls lah. actually no lah. is because we didn't invite guys.
or was my mum thinking of something else.
hahaha.
:)
and then me,my mum,my bro and my sis.
took taxi to bedok.
haha.
then hor. i was sitting in front. i was suppose to direct the taxi driver. in case he took the route that i didn't want.then hor. the moment i step into the taxi. haha.i went to sleep. cos im too tired i think.then in the end. the trip cost 9.80. close to 10. hello. i take to TP only 5 bucks plus only.
i wanted the taxi driver to use Tamp Avenue 10.
then straight down to Bedok reservoir.but then NO.
when he reach the tampines flyover. he didn't use the tampines flyover.
he turn down to PIE.
argh.
then after that. he turn to SIMEI.
then to tenah merah. then to bedok.
>.<
nvm lah. forget it.
anyway. yah.
went to my cousin house.
and god. i was having a bad sinus seh
then pray
and i just sleep on my cousin bed.
:)
too tired. haha.
then after that.
when i was in the living room. my sinus is getting worst lah.
then my cousin ask me whether need medicine or what anot.
i say no ba.
then i was thinking should i go to my aunt house.
cos they wana go to see my niece lah.
then in the end we go.
then we slack,play with my nieces.
and then we watch the campus superstar re-telecast.
with my nieces there.
haha. fun lah.
then we went back home.
tired. i just fall asleep.
haha.
then went to buy dinner.
:)

Wednesday-
wake up. suppose to meet the rest at 12.
in the end.
change to 2.
so ya.
went to meet up with wy and cloud.
was suppose to have bbq right.
in the end.
no.
we change to cook ourselves.
cos we lazy to prepare.
then because we were early.
then we went to cycle.
haha we rented three bikes.
and then we teach wy how to cycle.
but then. hm.
then we go for a drink.
haha. eh. as in SOFT DRINK.
i just love to enjoy.
then we went back.
and cook lor.
then we cook stuff up.
and ate and have fun.
huimin, daisy and her bf were there.
so we played zhong ji mi ma and then true or dare if u gana.
i gana twice. one is truth. the other is DARE.
and no one gana dare lor.
only suay me.
haha then they wanted me to go down and stand at the grass there.
and say the PLEDGE.
hello. and they say if dun want pledge, sing national anthem also can.
>.<
i know im proud to be a singaporean.
and we love our LION CITY a lot.
but don't need to this extend ba.
hm.
then in the end. they say just shouted something out of the window.
then i shouted Zhang lan arh.
actually not shouting.
haha.
anyway.
ha. yah.
then we send the three off.
then me, wy,cloud went to bath.
and then we played jenga.
this time round on the table. watch vcd. chat. hah. uno. and a lot of stuff.
but at about 3 something i cannot take it. i went to sleep. haha.

Thursday-
then went to catch sunrise again.
haha.
:)
fun right!
then pack our stuff.
then went off.
check out.
and i reach home.
then was suppose to go out.
but then no.
we change to friday.
:)
so i slack at home for the whole of thursday.
:)

Friday-
went to meet xiuxia and carol at Tamp cpf.
went to this agency.
xuejing came along too.
haha.
then went to this agency lor.
sign up and stuff then after that.
wh came to meet us.
:)
wanted to take taxi to Marine parade.
then we can't cos there's 5 pple.
haha. then we took 15 instead.
haha. then on the bus chatted.
however. i feel so inferior all of the sudden in the bus.
when i alighted. i feel not the same.
or maybe just disappointed.
but still. ya.
went kfc and bought some lunch.
then went to KBOX.
ya. but im still not my usual self at all.
haha.
but then i manage to sing lah.
anyway.
i shall not go KBOX for the moment.
for now. anyway. ya.
we were angry.
cos actually we wana take the package.
in the end. they charge us individual.
what hell.
but still.
the manager in the end. manage to get us a jar of free drink lor.
and then we went to sing somemore.
and then we went parkway and shop.
but none of us in the mood.
and then we took taxi home.
split into 2 taxi.
don't say lah.
taxi.
the taxi driver when reach xj house.
can from 201 tampines there go pasir ris right.
then he go use PIE again
>.<
i feel like screaming.
but nvm lah. forget it.
then reach home.
haha.
and have watch tv and news.
then i went to eat dinner alone.
yah.
just have bar chor mee.
and then.
bought a packet of milk from 7-11
went home.
and sleep

SAT-
went to pray at joo chiat.
weather so hot.
argh.
went to eat then.
haha.
hot lah.
reach home and sleep.
i meant i slept at 7 plus. wake up at 10 plus then have my dinner.
after dinner slept again.
so sian.
:(
then slept lor.

Sunday-
slack the whole day.
haha.
:)
then watch star idol.
happy that bryan won.
but i feel a bit sad for leo.
but anyway. yah.
:)

Tmr gona start work leh.
SIAN LAH.

oh yah. i know this is a super long post.
so sorry worx.
and if u are still awake by now.
good for you all.
if not sorry arh!!
god. this post took me 2 hours plus.
hahaha

i shall post pics soon.
:)


sian.
i haven pack my stuff for the chalet later.
*shake head*

hm.
did almost nothing yesterday.

sigh.
missing school more and more.
:(

i want SCHOOL!

shall blog this week.
after the chalet and everything.

ciaos ppl.
:)


[edited]
alright.
i don't understand why some ppl.
only get one C. complaint so much.
maybe cos their results is all A and B and Z.
thats why.
and me.
who gotten 3 C this sem.
complain so much?
i think they sldn't lah.
just one. you all complain.
then i got three.
i might as well jump down already.
>.<
its still a matter that.
A and Z are superior.
B and C are pretty average already.
but just in the sense that whether how you percieve the C.
for me.
at first is like hell.
thn after that. you will think that it's kind of average.
so i now tell myself.
the three C.
is kind of avergae.
so overall this sem result im still kind of happy.
and none of my friend fail!
=)

oh well.
On fri-
i went to pray to my great-grandfather.
my mum say until i thought is my grandfather.
oh well.
then went to Tampines after that.
i reach at about 11.
so i waited for them for 1hour.
think so.
then i just walked ard tamp mall.
then i went to meet xiuxia at tamp mall mcdonlad.
then xj came along.
went to eat YAY.
LJS.
hahaha.
:)
then went to play arcade.
play daytona.
i was happily leading first.
in the end, im the last one.
>.<
then we went to simei arcade and play.
=)
play the dadada.
i don't know what is it call.
but u must keep on hitting the buttons.
theres three button lah.
okok.
xj pro.
win 6 rounds.
then we went to play photohunt.
haha.
:)
thn play until suddenly.
xj hp got msg.
then she open.
then she saw is exam result.
then xiuxia recieve.
then i haven recieve.
then i no mood to play.
then come home know results.
the rest u all know liao.

Sat- i went to sch.
then to expo.
:)
then came home.

today i think i shall simply slack!

hahaha.
tomorrow.
chalet.
whoooooo.
=)
[edited]
thanks my friends.
for tagging.
sms.
:)


lolx.
yay.
im feeling better.
hahas.
just feel that the result is average.
nothing much
=)

shall blog next week.
i had fun yesterday.
:)

hehe


[edited]
tears cannot be control.

why everyone get so good.
why?

except for me?

WHY!!!

my gpa drop.
my result drop.
say bye to everything leh.
bye to uni.
bye to everything.
and maybe bye to my whole life.
UNI. forget about it.
how come i this so stupid person wana aim that high?
for wth reason?
why should i?

i feel like ending my life right now!

can u imagine.
gpa drop.
isn't the most wonderful thing in the world.
though im grateful that there ain't any D this time.

but then.
why are the coursework grade that i gotten B.
all become c+ and C.
but im grateful that for Int fin.
i gotten a B.
which is impossible.
since i gotten C
for the coursework.
but those i gotten B.
in the end.
become C and C+
:(
and for comm skill.
im glad too.
i don't know why i could gotten B. when my english sucks.

shitty feeling right now.
i hate life.
i hate school.
i hate teachers.
i hate my whole life.

my life is being destroy.
somehow.
i hated it.
i can never do well again.
disappointed.

i wana QUIT sch.

i hate the result slip this sem.
2B,1C+,2C.
i hated it.
i hated it.
i hated hated it!

btw.
i forgotten to congrats Xuejing scoring 3distinction.

aww.
why can't i just be like her?

now.
tears are dropping again.
:'(

gtg.
bye.

[edited]
thanks my friends.

i know life is full of ups and downs.
but then.

this time round.
im really feeling very very down.
:(

I still wana say i hate my result.
:(

im lost right now.
i don't know what to do.

i hate myself.
:'(


its 12am plus.
n i still can't sleep.
god.
pls do let me sleep.
:)

but im so nervous right now.
shit.
whats wrong.
its not like u never ever take result before right?
psle.
n and o level.
poly every sem result.
oh no.
whats wrong?
i hate this okay!

sleep sleep sleep.
i wana sleep.

how i wish i never sign up for the sms.
:(

i need a tight hug.
a shoulder.
just to calm me down.
hm.

maybe in my dreams.

referring to the yesterday night entry.
i think hor.
SUNTEC and MARINA SQUARE.
i shall not go there for next week.
cos this 2 weeks i have been there.
for like three times already.
hm.
alright.

i STILL CAN'T SLEEP
help lah!


sigh.
in a bad mood all of the sudden.
:(

suddenly.
my world seem so empty.
what the heck is wrong?

and oh.
my language is deproving(is there any such words)
reason. talk more on msn. see if my english is becoming worst.
but oh. i love it too lah.
hahahs.
cos nowdays. talk to friend online. learn different forms of typin. which can mean the same word.
hm.
:)
like me. in the past.
laughing right. i will put haha.
then now.
my friends various different forms come out leh.
like.
hahas.
hahahahs.
hahs.
then for "like what xia"
my friend right.
say cannot use xia.
must use "sia".
haha.
that person should know who is it.
lol
aiyah a lot lah.
then i learn.
but to cut my energy on typing. i just choose the shortest.
but i think right.
not right leh.
like very weird.
argh.
don't know.
then hor. my friend more li hai.
gotta is what i type in the past.
then now. she keep on typing gota.
then now. i use this. until i also bu xi guan.
wth is wrong arh?
its still singlish lah.
lol
my chinese is getting worst too.
even though listen to chinese music.
but still.
my chinese is half a bucket of water now.
:(
or worst than that now?
whew.

just now.
suddenly i ask my dad about SIM.
or sld i say uniSIM?
i don't know why all of the sudden talk about that.
hm.
i never ask much though.
oh well.

nowdays.
free.
tmr going out to pray to grandfather.
death aniversary.
:(
sigh.
tmr morning must wake up again.

today afternoon.
went to Suntec IT fair.
think gona go on Sunday or Sat?
duno.
for duno what reason.
after that shop at Bugis.
went home at about 7.
haha.
reach home at about 8.

thats all i think.
hm.

gtg soon!
:)
bye everyone.
and nite.

oh ya.
tmr result.
:(
scared now.
haix.


Why is Chengxi out yesterday?
WHY?

awwww.
cry for awhile but still.
sigh.
result finalised.
what can we do?

nvm.

oh well.

did almost nothing yesterday too.
yep.have been slacking.nothing but slacking.
sigh.

awww.
i don't know what to blog now.
be back soon.
:)


argh.
i want to drive badly.
i want to learn driving badly.

:(

i went to have breakfast at mcdonald this morning.
hee.
so happy!
hah.

yesterday slack the whole day.
don't know what to do.
sigh.
:(

today i guess also the same ba.
haix.

i wana study after graduation.
i don't want to WORK YET!!
but i still wana learn driving.
haix.
:(
money. can u fall down now?


i admit i rightfully belong to sotong club.
haha.
i really so sotong.

yesterday. i was suppose to meet xj and ting at Tampines Platform at 1.40.
initially is 1.45 at Simei with Xj. then ting going. so we meet at Tampines Platform instead.
ok
the story goes.

i was happily bathing very early.
think at about 12.20pm. and jolly well came out of my bathroom at about 12.50pm.
i was so happy. that i just pack my things.
and just went out of my house at about 1.15pm.
i walked to Pasir Ris Interchange happily.
cos i know im early.
FOR THE FIRST TIME.
i called ting again to double cfm that we will be meeting at 1.40pm at Tampines Platform.
and she say. walk ard whitesand first.
so ya.
i walked at whitesand.nothing to do. just up the escalator and then down again.
and then i happily walked to the control station. with the thought of topping up my ez-link.
whew..
i was queuing up.
and then when i take out my wallet.
i couldn't find my ez-link. and then the next thing i knew was.
:(
i put my ez-link in my cupboard!
reason is because- on sunday, when i went to whitesand at night. i bring my ez-link only. not the whole of my wallet.
ARGHHH.
i was so angry with myself. and so i gota walked back to my house for another 10-15 minutes.
even though the distance is not that long.
haix.

oh well.
reach home. took my card.
and just went out of my house again.
walk to Pasir ris interchange again.
now i wonder why my house not directly opposite whitesand. ain't that cool?
hahahs.
kidding lah.
okok
and thanks to Xj and Ting.
for coming down to Pasir ris platform and waited for me.
:)
and funny thing is.
they claim that i use the Pasir ris town park route.
but i didn't.
i use the other route to reach Pasir ris Interchange.
hah.
then they realised they were wrong. i mean they spot the right me.
but they say the wrong route.
haha.
:)

went to TP(Tanjong Pagar, Not Toa payoh or Temasek Poly, for your info)
and meet mic and xav there.
went to the interview.
not really interview.
but briefing.
but not really will have the job.
:(
i want JOB lah.
oh well.
this is so sian.
then after that. mic and xav went to PS.
we went to Marina Square.
and i tell you next time go Marina. pls rmeind me to bring cardigan or whatever.
im so cold lor.
shop and ate at Mcdonald.
:)
HAPPY!

hah.
i wana buy shirt and skirt.
but i need money
is not i don't have any now.
but i just want more money to spend now.
sigh*-
:(
JOB. WHEN WILL I HAVE A JOB!?
haix.

oh yah. i don't think i can watch any result show. even before the person cry or didn't cry.
i already cry.
SIGH

but i LOVE. yuyang de "FENG"
and M3 de My anata.
and then m5 de yue liang dai biao shui de xin(argh. my eh. han yu pian yin is lousy)

okok.
i gtg.
i wonder what will i do today again?

Happy 19th Bday to Huijun!
:)


:)
well.
yesterday.
hehe.
i very happy!!
hah.
no lah. why?
no particular reason anyway.
but yay.

for the whole day, i was at home.
in the afternoon, watch the repeat telecast of SuperHost final.
well. no comment. since results finalised.
:)
okay.
then hor. yesterday then i know.my sis maths tutition teacher lives in Toa Payoh.
peng.
she came all the way to Pasir ris.
pei fu!!

oh ya.
then at night.
went to whitesand.
with my sis,mum and dad.
:)
had dinner at Magic wok.
haha.
im so full okay.
well.
then we shop.
and then i think i pity dad credit card bill next month.
hahahahahas.
:)
im happy!!!
delighted.
i bought a pair of shorts.
thats all.
oh yah.
i still considering to get contact.
or a new spects.
after the renu thingy.
im sort of scared of contact lens already.
Sunday at Whitesand, is kind of crowded.
partly.
maybe because the army guys are booking in.
so its very crowded.
esp mcdonald.
i don't know why too.
or maybe theres really no place to eat.
hahas.
and the interchange.
dun need to say.
you can also see a lot of people.

okok
enough craps lah
i need to stop eating.
im getting FAT!

oh well.
what should i do today?

hm.

in dreams. it might be sweet.
in reality, it might be opposite.



i want to scream out loud.
:(

im so bored.
i feel like sleeping
but i can't sleep

so im online
playing games with friends.
but i know nothing abt mahjong.
:(

so well.
now its time for something yesterday.and of course friday.

now lets see.
Friday-
hah.
went to HARBOUR FRONT.
:)
i mean as in meet xuejing and michele at Harbour front.
then went to Seah Im Food centre(is it this one)
to eat
hah
then went to took 143
to Pasir Panjang.
which is only a few stops away.
went to a building beside the PSA.
hm.
call don't know what.
i forgotten.
btw. im a lu chi
so don't ask me abt the directory of Singapore.
then went for this interview.
haha
For popular book fair de.
so went for it.
but i think chances also low.
then we took bus we took bus 143 again.
Michelle alighted at Harbour front.
then me and xj alight at Orchard.
and took 518 back.
on the bus journey back.
i slept.
xuejing too.
when i alighted at Pasir ris.
i was feeling so weird.
as if my whole body gona give way soon
then reach home.
then mum cook maggie mee for me.
cos they ate outside.
without me!!!
:(
ate dinner.
watch tv
do nothing liao

yesterday
almost did nothing.
went to nowhere
was at home the whole day.
but then my cousin came over in the afternoon.
so yah.
:)
mum COOK dinner that day.
hah.
cool right
reason:My dad having dinner at home that day.
>.<
okay.

then we went to central at abt 9plus.
with my mum and dad.
then my dad went to deposit money right the machine go and eat the card away.
stupid machine. hm.

well.
on friday.
while i was sleeping.
i had a nightmare.
the worst.
i dreamt that i was in the exam hall having my PFP supp paper.
and i HAND IN EMPTY ANSWER.
:(
i dreamt that i was feeling so down truout the whole exam.
okok enough. it was scary and i woke up telling myself.
:)
it was a dream!

oh well. >.<


i am craving for some tangyuan
and fish porridge now..
can some1 buy for me?
hm.
and also Mcdonald breakfast.
grr.


well.
im actually quite disappointed in myself.

yesterday was rather unpleasant. maybe except the afternoon part.
:(
sigh.
In the morning.
actually went to Jurong in the end. never get the job.
hell
then i took taxi down to KOVAN - heartland mall there.
to have my piano exam.
lucky the TAXI took the route that i wanted.
or else i will just scream my lungs out.
before going into the EXAM HALL.
i was already freaking nervous.
NERVOUS.
i keep on clutching my fingers.
can't concentrate on whats going on WITH the books.
my arual,my scales,my whatever.
:(

WELL.
its finally my turn.
:(
i went in.
and all i know was i WAS DAMN NERVOUS!!
:(
oh well.
i played.
i tried my best.
but im still nervous.
Alright.
finally its over.
:(
*i hope i can pull tru*

you know why i dislike myself so much?
i hate to screw up in exams.
cos i know when im nervous.
i will tend to screw up by forgetting what i have learnt.
:(
I COULDN'T SCREW UP ANYMORE NEXT TIME!

then after that. went to CITY HALL and meet XJ n Michelle.
:)
shop ard.
ate at Carl Jr Marina Square.
:)
hm.
then went to shop ard.
didn't buy anything.
cos i know what to buy.
but i just don't feel like buying.
went Suntec after that.
have the career and education fair there.
but didn't went.
hahas.
then we shop ard somemore.
then went to the entertainment centre and play.
hm.
:)
oh well.
at least it didn't make me think so much of my exam after all.
:)

went home at about 6.
reached home and my three aunts(from my dad side) were at my house.
hohoho.
hahaha.
then they are eating dinner at my house ma.
then they haven start.
so i can't start my dinner too.
:(
then i waited for them to start.
cos im simply too hungry leh.
:(
then phew.
they finally start!
:)
hahas.
so happy.
but hor.
cos my mum didn't cook what.
SHE ONLY COOK CURRY CHICKEN.
and the rest of the food is da bao from the food court near my house.
cos simply.
my mum didn't know what to cook!
hahas
so haix.
i only like have 2 pieces of tofu. and one chicken from the curry chicken.
then because i don't take spicy food.
phew.
i cannot take it lah.
but still i finish up my rice.
hahas

I LOVE GOD.
heex

A level result was released on WED.
pretty cool to find out actually there are a lot of students who SCORE PRETTY WELL.
wait a min.
NOT PRETTY WELL.
but VERY WELL!
:)
i mean how to score 9 distinction?
but envy that they can enter uni.
haha.

well.
im so bored right now.
:(
i need to work.
or else im gona rot for the whole of next month.
:(

i remember something funny.
that day on wednesday.
my BROTHER AND SISTER came home from school.
hahas.
and then the next thing i knew was.
my sis was telling my mum that principal talk to brother today.
then my mum ask why.
then my bro say.
ask me to wear long pants liao.
not SHORTS!!
muhahaahahahaha..
i was laughing like shithead.
hahahahahaha
ask him to wear.
DON'T WANT TO WEAR.
COS HE COMPLAIN VERY HOT LAH.
okay.
im being a mean sis right now.
hahas

oh i wana go RUNNING!
anyone wana join me?
hahahaha..


i just came back home from piano lesson.
hehe
well. its like 3 hours im there? 8.30am-11.30?
:)
I CAN DO IT!!
tmr my day.
hah
lalala~

oh ya.
HAPPY 19TH BDAY TO JINGPING!!!


sigh
i hated holidays now.
i hated hated holidays now.

:(

for various reasons.
i cried to sleep yesterday.
:(

After reading my friend friend blog yesterday.
i just cried on the spot.
cos maybe i don't think that person relative should have passed away at such a young age.
:'(
you can say that im sentimental or what.
but its really really sad.
its such a pity that the girl got to die at such a young age.
life is really unpredictable.
haix

oh well.
now.
i was online the whole of the morning.
plus at night while i using the computer.
my mum nag at me.
for godness sake.
im having my hols lah.
not school the next day.
PLEASE LAH.
let me have the choice alright?

i cried after what my friend have msg me.
i nearly feel so sad for her too.
i don't wana mention what happen.
:(
then i went to sleep.
forcing myself to sleep.
cos im not that tired.
and half of me felt so worried for my piano exam tmr.
the stress level is there.
but i always not showing it.
or maybe i have already showed it.
but maybe because i cried.
thats why i slept after like one and half hour later. [which is abt 3am]
:(
haix.
oh well.
slept all the way until.
TING MSG ME AT 6AM.
she told me she toppled her contact lens solutions.
and there's no extra solution.
thats why she didn't sleep for the whole night.
i was too lazy to reply her back
so i went back to sleep for another one hour.
and at 7plus. i msg her then.
hah.

while i was sleeping.
i dream again.
he entered into my dream once again.
a nice one though.
...
and i never even dream of results anymore.

well.
its the hols.
which means.
i gotten a job at science centre.
considering the distance which i don't like it.
but considering the money.
then i haix.
bo bian seh.
:(
after that i shall see how.
:(

oh well.
NOW IS TO SAY good luck to my friends for their A level result later on.
no worry about the dream that you all had for the past few months.
only 3 months lah.
believe in yourself.
believe in MOE.
believe in Cambridge.
believe in GOD.
i don't know leh.
as long as effort is being put in.
no worry about the result.
:)
Jia you neh!!

GOOD LUCK.
:)

[shall i sign up for the sms result]
:(
i don't want to see those result that i am so afraid of...

i miss all my peeps suddenly.
holiday doesn't seem to be a very good choice now.
i rather have.
HAVE.
SCHOOL.

awww.i want school!!!!!!!!!!

DeDuan / DD
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